too afraid i'll never love again. so i love you
even though it's unrequitted
even though it hurts sometimes
it lets me know i'm still alive
and maybe capable of doing more than simply existing
simply surviving.
reminds me of a time,
ever so briefly,
when i felt calm, at peace, safe to be me...in love.
don't like the person who claims to be me now.
what life and simply surviving for the past two decades all the while dreaming of a life that now seems it will never be lived
can't even dream anymore and feel like i need someone who remembers who i was when i did
but there isn't anyone that can
